Don't know what I want but I know it's not you

Nunca lo verás,o si lo haces no podrás decirme nada porque supuestamente no lees mis cosas;debido a que soy lo peor en tu vida;una ventaja.

Es tiempo. Razonar,crecer & olvidar.Aprender de mis errores & de las cosas buenas que adquerí,aprendí a amar.Amé.

Claramente ya no siento lo mismo,osea..si,aún amo;& seguirá así,pero ya no será lo mismo,ya no será tan a flor de piel,es un amor contaminado por dolor,rencor,arrepentimiento,etc.

Jamás me habían dañado tanto,& oh si,que me han dañado demasiado,dejandome dopada por 2 años completos.No sucerá lo mismo,pero duele más que esa vez.

No volverá a suceder.

Alguna vez dije que fui hecha para esa persona,& aun lo creo.Pero me usó & me desechó,sacó todo de mi,que idiotamente se lo di todo,más de lo que era capaz,& no lo culpo por haber usado todo de mi,ya que se lo di;pero tomó todo & dejandome sin nada se marchó.Esperó el mejor momento para botarme.

Me pregunto muchas veces cual habrá sido la verdadera razón.Idiota.

Me estoy permitiendo crecer,ya ha pasado bastante tiempo,uno se complica más las cosas,ya no lo haré más,no me es necesario.Aplicaré algo para olvidar,no habrá mas dolor.

Todo cae por su propio peso,no?.Ojo,no deseo mal,ni mucho menos.

No more.

Last time
I thought we had this talk
Boy
you were getting ready to leave
I thought that baby you were done
Cause for a while
you could barely look at me
This time
I thought that we'd be fine
That I'd forget the thing that you said
I tried crossing out your words
But baby
you can not forget the past
Can not forget the past
Still
baby
I'm so unpredictable
you don't know what to think
So unemotional
wonder if I'm still in love
You see
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder the second time around
I'm so unbreakable
just like you used to be
So unemotional
boy I can't forget the way you were with me
I don't know what to tell you know
It's always harder the second time around
The second time around
We tried going back to Joe's
That was always our favorite place
Long rides
baby by the coast
Do you remember where we stayed?
Last time
we were hanging out
You were acting kind of strange
Now it's the second time around
I'm starting to see
it's me that feels this way
My heart just speaks to me
It's me that feels this way
I know that you are the one that is brave
I'm not sure the best way to say this
But I can't pretend to love you no more
babe
This Ferris wheels got me crazy
Maybe the second time around is not meant for us
baby
Not meant for us
baby